Thursday, January 29, 2015

Because You Can Never Be Prepared Enough and He Has to Run Free

No matter how hard you try, you can never be prepared enough for death. You say you're okay, say you're fine, say it's going to be fine, but there are some losses that are bigger than the others, far wider than what you could grasp.

Sometimes, you have all these dreams and they could be shattered just because life throws itself at you and you have to deal with it. Sometimes, you have all these plans and because of death, they'll never come to life again.

They say you have to let the ones you love go because sometimes, that's the only way for them to be happy and free. And you try, because you know that there's no other way--but you're left with a hole in your heart and the feeling that you'll never be okay again.

But of course, you'll be. Sooner or later, you'll be.

But things will never be the same again.

Why do the ones you love have to go when you're not ready, anyway?

When exactly are you going to be ready, anyway?

Bye, Kitty. Fly in Peace. x
(May 2013 to January 30, 2014)

Thursday, January 22, 2015

Jennifer Niven - ALL THE BRIGHT PLACES: Book Review + Soundtrack

All the Bright Places 
Jennifer Niven

The Fault in Our Stars meets Eleanor and Park in this exhilarating and heart-wrenching love story about a girl who learns to live from a boy who intends to die.
Soon to be a major motion picture starring Elle Fanning!
Theodore Finch is fascinated by death, and he constantly thinks of ways he might kill himself. But each time, something good, no matter how small, stops him.

Violet Markey lives for the future, counting the days until graduation, when she can escape her Indiana town and her aching grief in the wake of her sister’s recent death.

When Finch and Violet meet on the ledge of the bell tower at school, it’s unclear who saves whom. And when they pair up on a project to discover the “natural wonders” of their state, both Finch and Violet make more important discoveries: It’s only with Violet that Finch can be himself—a weird, funny, live-out-loud guy who’s not such a freak after all. And it’s only with Finch that Violet can forget to count away the days and start living them. But as Violet’s world grows, Finch’s begins to shrink.

When I first heard that Elle Fanning was going to star in the film adaptation of ALL THE BRIGHT PLACES, I said to myself that I HAVE to read that book. So, I did, and wow, I just have too many feeeeeeeels. 

You see, at first I thought that it was just going to be one of those books that was going to be like everything else in the market but it turned out to possibly be the best thing I’ve read this year, so far. I thought it was going to be pretentious, and that it would be a rip-off of everything I’ve recently read—but I was wrong. 

ALL THE BRIGHT PLACES tells about the story of Violet Markey and Theodore Finch who found each other in the craziest circumstance and learned that they needed each other—and needed to see the world, or at least, close to it. I’ve always had this thing for stories that deals with road trips, or seeing the world and the like. 

Another thing that I like about the story is that the characters, although they’re young, are deep. And it’s not just the romantic kind of deep, it’s the real kind of it—which made me appreciate this book more. It’s the kind of story that has so much depth in it. 

What also made me in awe of this book is the fact that the author knows what she’s talking about. You can feel her emotions through her words and that’s why the story is so effective. Maybe, you won’t realize it in the beginning, but as the story progresses, you’d understand why the characters (especially Finch) are the way they are. And somehow, you’d feel for them, especially if you’ve gone through what they’re going through.

I also liked the fact that ALL THE BRIGHT PLACES discusses issues that are real, no matter how people try to hide them or try to think that teenagers do not or should not deal with these issues. She knows about the things that are wrong with the world, and how one can really feel. 

Needless to say, it’s the kind of story that certainly leaves a mark. I don’t think you’ll be able to finish this book without feeling shattered, or feeling a surge of emotions enveloping you. Read it—all the way to the end. Let yourself be whisked away by the story. Let yourself understand. 

Trust me, this story? It will stay with you—for life. 

P.S. ALL THE BRIGHT PLACES also inspired me to create a playlist for Violet and Finch and here it is:

1. The Script – All the Right Moves
2. Natasha Bedingfield – Wild Horses
3. Coldplay – Magic
4. Natasha Bedingfield – I Bruise Easily
5. The Calling – Stigmatized
6. The Smiths – How Soon is Now
7. Tift Meritt – Broken
8. Julie C – Apple Tree
9. Christina Perri – Arms
10. Dido – Life for Rent
11. Jason Mraz – Back to Earth
12. John Mayer – Dreaming with a broken heart
13. Coldplay – Fix You

Ines B. Yao - ONLY A KISS: Book Review + GIVEAWAY

Hi Darlings! Today I'm reviewing Ines Bautista Yao's ONLY A KISS! 

Title: Only A Kiss
Author: Ines Bautista-Yao
Publisher: Chamber Shell Publishing
Date of Publication: November 29, 2014
Genre: contemporary romance

When she was nine-years-old, Katie knew she wanted Chris to give her her first kiss. It wasn’t because she was in love with him (no way, he was her best friend! Besides, she was in love with his fourteen-year-old big brother), it was because she could make him do anything she wanted.

Besides, it didn't really mean anything. It was only a kiss after all.

But then things started to change. They grew up. They parted ways and went to different high schools. And other girls and boys—well, just one particular boy—came into the picture, throwing their lives upside down.

Told from the alternating points of view of Katie and Chris, this love story between two best friends will tug at your heartstrings and leave you thinking how the simplest things can mean so much.

Purchase links: Amazon | 
Oh, and you can actually get the book for just $0.99 until February 14--Perfect Valentine gift, eh?

Also, Paperback Copies of the book are already available in the Philippines! You can get them at National Book Store and Fully Booked
 First up, I have to say that I've always admired the author because I was part of that generation when she was CANDY'S EIC (I know I'm old lol) and I was excited for this book! Well, the cover's super pretty. I mean, just look at it. And when I saw that, I was like, this has got to be good.

I have to say that the story was really, really cute. You can't go wrong with two kids who are in that stage of "puppy love" or whatever you might call it. I also am obsessed with all things weddings so the premise worked for me. However, a bit of a problem I found with this book is that I found it a little too light for my liking. It had some of those moments where I felt like something more, something bigger could have happened, but there was none, and that kind of made me sad.

BUT, and it's a big BUT, what made this book special for me is the fact that it doesn't pretend to be anything rather than what it is. It takes you back to that time when you were a kid and you may have fallen for your closest friend. It takes you back to that time when you grew up and had to move away from people around you, and had to break some connections--and only choose the ones that matter. It makes you feel "kilig" in the most innocent form of the word, and it makes you realize that sometimes, the things you need are really just around you--and you only have to open your eyes some more to appreciate and understand them.

After reading this book, my heart was happy--and kilig. And if a book can do that, then it's something good. 

Oh, and you know what else is good? The author's giving away a stash of prizes! Check out the GIVEAWAY below and join!
For Philippine residents:

One (1) winner will get a signed paperback of ONLY A KISS, a gift card from FILA, and a back issue of CAST comic book
Two (2) winners will each get a signed paperback of ONLY A KISS, light up laces, and back issue of CAST comic book

For everyone:

FIve (5) winners will each get an ebook of ONLY A KISS

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Ines Bautista-Yao is the author of One Crazy Summer, What’s in your Heart, and Only a Kiss. She has also written two short stories, “Flashbacks and Echoes,” which is part of a compilation called All This Wanting and “A Captured Dream,” one of the four short stories in Sola Musica: Love Notes from a Festival.

She is the former editor-in-chief of Candy and K-Zone magazines and a former high school and college English and Literature teacher.  She is also a wife and mom and blogs about the many challenges and joys of motherhood at She has recently launched The Author Project, a section in her current blog devoted to the stories in her head:

She posts on Instagram and tweets @inesbyao and her author page is

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Monday, January 19, 2015

Jenna Black - REVOLUTION: Book Review

Revolution (Replica, #3) 
Jenna Black
 Hello, darlings! So...this year's first book review is all about Jenna Black's REVOLUTION, the third and final installment of the REPLICA series. It follows the story of Nate and Nadia from the time that Nate died, came back to life--or something like it (you have to read the first book to understand), until they found out that a big conspiracy is going on--and they have to try their very best to make things work while they're staying underground so they could get back on the government and survive.

I have to admit that at first, this installment felt like it was going too slow. I really liked REPLICA and RESISTANCE because they were both action-packed from the beginning, and I felt like this one lacked that element at some point. However, once the story progressed, I realized how the magic is still there and how that slow-paced beginning was needed to help readers understand why the characters had to do what they were doing--and how their world evolved from the first story all the way to this one.

I also liked how the characters grew. They're young, but they have matured so much in this story + YEEEES YOU'LL GET THE "kilig" feeeeeeeels with Nate/Kurt, Nadia/Dante and it's just awesome. I like how the love angles were brought in and how it jelled with the action-packed story well.

Was it the perfect resolution to everything? In some ways, yes. REVOLUTION was pretty much realistic, although it's Dystopia, but the great thing is that the author was able to create a world that's believable, and scary at the same time. And for me, that's what made this story amazing.

Check out the rest of the reviews for this story and follow the blog tour HERE! 

Sunday, January 18, 2015

This Week's Realizations

1. When you're in your (ew) late 20's, there may be times when you'd feel like...Shit, I am getting old and I am still THIS person. Sometimes, those thoughts hit you and will make you feel every bit as real as you should feel. And you know how that feels? It sometimes feels...awful. Because well, reality does bite after all. It's like, you begin to dissect each and every single thing you've done in your life and wonder how on earth you got to where you are.You know how in OTH they were like, "Yesterday is today and someday is today" and all that? Yeah, that's how it feels.

2. Adulthood is also about coming to terms with the fact that not everything is black and white--and you have beliefs that some people may not understand, but well, they're your beliefs, either way. 

3. Your family is not only limited to those who bore and clothed you; Sometimes, you get to choose your own family, and that's alright, too. 

4. You can get tired of something you love, but you can always try to get back on track in your own little ways. (And no, I am not talking about relationships)

5. People have different ways of showing you that they love you. 

6. And, I still feel happy and giddy every time someone tells me that they appreciate what I do, or how I write.  (Not the work related kind). This one's for you, Ate Anna. :) Thank you for reminding me about what I love doing the most. Back in school, I always thought of you as super like, hard to reach because you're so smart and all that, and we weren't really close back then, but over the years, you have become one of my favorite people because you're amazing, and you're real, and I really like the way you write, too. So deep and profound. 

Happy Sunday, darlings. xx

Thursday, January 1, 2015

This Week's Prompt: 50 Things about Me

Happy New Year, Darlings!
My first blog post for this year shall be dedicated to writing about 50 Things About Me (because recently, I had a project about Writing Prompts so, why not use some of them? :)) we go...

50 Things About Me

1. My full first name is Cherubim Cassandra Paula.

2. I don't like using that name anymore because well, I believe that like Alaska Young, we have the choice to choose our own name lol seriously...too many bad memories, and Cherubim is a little too nice for who I am right now, so let's stick to Cass or Luna, instead. ;)

3. Luna happened because of Luna Lovegood! And, Alyeska is because of Alaska Young.

4. I haven't read too many books in the past couple of weeks because short attention span and anxiety problems.

5. But I just bought a book a while ago, the first for this year, so here's hoping that I'd get back to the habit of reading without my mind going elsewhere.

6. I've had anxiety problems since I was...hmmm...maybe 8 or 9 years old.

7. I once watched 123 movies in a year.

8. And this year, I vow to watch 1 movie each day or every other day again.

9. I have this weird habit of buying notepads and notebooks and organizers or any other writing items but I end up not filling up every page or not using them all the time. So, I'm technically a paper hoarder lol

10. I also buy cute pens just for the heck of it.

11. I can't write when I'm not using the computer. I am super lazy when it comes to "handwriting" already.

12. The most number of books I've read in a year alone is 168, which happened in 2013. (I cannot believe I cannot call 2013 "last year" anymore)

13. I'd watch any movie as long as Mark Ruffalo's in there.

14. My favorite movies of all time are: A Walk to Remember, The Virgin Suicides, 13 Going on 30, Eternal Sunshine of the Spotless Mind, Gia, Begin Again, Riding in Cars with Boys, Elvis and Anabelle, 500 Days of Summer, New Year's Eve, Girl Interrupted, Edward Scissorhands, Bee Movie, Harry Potter and the Prisoner of Azkaban, and Toy Story 2. (I know I'm still forgetting a lot...)

15. Which brings us to fact #15: I am seriously forgetful. That's why I cannot read something for a long time before working because I'd end up forgetting what I read and will just have to read it again.

16. I end up BAWLING when I watch movies or even short clips with sad animal tales in them. I cannot take it. When I watched Marley and Me, I ended up in a fetal position on my bed just crying about it for hours. >.< (I cried at the book, too.)

17. My favorite books of all time would have to be: My Sister's Keeper, Looking for Alaska, The Harry Potter Series, Love Rosie, There's No Place Like Here, If You Could See Me Now, Paper Towns, Veronika Decides to Die, Like the Flowing River, Eleven Minutes, The Secret Life of Marilyn Monroe, Eleanor and Park, Fangirl, Dear John, and the Pretty Little Liars Series (and a whole lot of books that I'm probably forgetting at the moment)

18. As for local books, I love: Cover Story Girl by Chris Mariano, Table for Two by Marla Miniano, Fairy Tale Fail by Mina Esguerra, All's Fair in Blog and War by Chrissie Peria, Vince's Life by Vince Teves, and Janus Silang by Edgar Samar.

19. I haven't met a lot of authors because I suck at waking up early and falling in line but I've met Nicholas Sparks in 2011 (or was it 2010? Bea, help me out lol) and met my friend Bea at the same event; also, in December 2013, I met the ever awesome Chris Mariano with my boyfriend and it was one of those nights that I'll never forget. <3

2o. My favorite flowers are Sunflowers, and Red Roses.

21. I have an obsession with weddings. One time, I think this was back in 2010 and my Tumblr was filled up with wedding-related posts, someone asked if I was actually getting married lol.

22.I only got Instagram in August last year. Now, I am obsessed with it. 

23. I started reviewing books on this blog in 2013 and got free books, some freebies, and great experiences along the way. <3 *I'll try to blog more again this year because last year was uber busy*

24. I am also obsessed with Gossip Girl.

25. Also, I love the Kardashians. Especially Khloe, and Kendall, and Scott! #notevenashamedanymore

26. I am 26 years old. Somehow, I don't want to believe it.

27. I am allergic to chocolates but there are times when I end up eating lots of them because cravings. :D

28. I once had (have, it's still running) a quotes blog called an angel's collection of quotes. (I have no idea what I was thinking when I came up with that name)

29. I am obsessed with the voices of Ellie Goulding, Lorde, and Lana del Rey.
Lana is a genius with her music videos. I really like her monologues, especially in Ride.

30. I love Demi Lovato because she is strong. 

31. I need to be in the mall at least 2 to 4 times a week or I feel all the more depressed (like right now lol)

32. My favorite TV shows are: The OC, Once Upon a Time, Gossip Girl, Master Chef Junior, Kitchen Nightmares, How to Get Away with Murder, New Girl, Pretty Little Liars, and My Strange Addiction. 

33. I am estranged with my family. I also believe that you cannot and should not judge someone for that because all families are different and sometimes, even if it's sad and crazy, your family can break you. I think I also broke them, but yeah, that's that. Your parents can break you, and I'm saying this not because "masama ang loob ko" and all but because it's true. It happened already. And when those things happen, it's really hard to get out of it; it's hard to move on but you try your best. (I only talk to my youngest brother some days)

34. I haven't gone home in over a year. Sometimes, I think about it but then again...Why would you go back to something that broke you? (I do miss the house sometimes, though. It was a nice place. And I miss my dad aka stepdad)

35. I haven't met two of my biological siblings from my father's side yet, but I got to talk to my cousin sometime last year but yeah, I don't know how to feel about that anymore. Maybe, someday.

36. I also haven't met my real father in person! Well, he was around til I was maybe 2, and we got to talk some 7 years ago but nothing materialized out of it.

37. I am not a morning person. Wake me up before 8 or 9 am and I feel cranky the whole day or I feel like I haven't gotten any sleep. 

38. I'm also really.slow. when it comes to taking a bath and dressing up and all that.

39. I can't do everyday office jobs because they bore me and I get tired of the "byahe" and I end up being sick--all the time. 

40. Last year, I had Pneumonia and I thought I was gonna die lol

 41. I am agnostic. Let me be clear: I believe in a Supreme Being; I just don't believe in organized religion, or people who try to turn you into them because "their religion is the only thing that's right".
42. I have loads of girl crushes. I feel like females are more beautiful than males lol.

43. But I'm happy with my relationship with my guy. I consider him and our cats as my family now. 

44. I have no plans of having kids.

45. I think of the cats when I'm away from home.

46. I want to have a nice house or an apartment in a year or two. Or months, hopefully, if money ends up in front of me just like that lol and I want a room for the cats! 

47. When I'm not working, I feel like shit. I mean, sometimes I get super lazy but then I feel like, "What are you doing with your life again?" so I work even on holidays if I could just so my mind doesn't get cluttered.

48. I love making lists...and reading lists.

49. My favorite songs of all time are: Vienna by Billy Joel, Never Grow Up by Taylor Swift, Champagne Supernova by Oasis, If I Die Young by The Band Perry, Explosions by Ellie Goulding, A World Alone by Lorde, and every Lana del Rey song out there. (I'm sure there are more but again, memory problems)

50. And...I want these words on my Epitaph: "Life and Death, Energy and Peace. If I stop today, it will be worth it. The pains that have burned me and scarred my soul, they were still worth it; Even the terrible mistakes that I have made and would unmake if I could; for having been allowed to walk where I walked, which was to hell on earth, heaven on earth, back again, into, far in between, on it, in it, and above." (Heard this from the movie Gia)

Toodles! I am utterly hungry now :D