Sunday, January 24, 2016

Old Friends


You look at that old album, one that has not been opened in years, one which contents you thought have gotten out of your grasp; out of your memory. In reality, they’re still there, just waiting to be opened up again.

You see photos of that girl—that one girl you’ve been friends with for years. You remembered how you fought over stickers and papers; how you would braid each other’s hair; how you would stay at each other’s homes just talking for hours while dissecting what’s on television; how you would talk about those silly boys who made you smile, and made you confused, at the same time.

You smile as you leaf through the pages, the remnants of your old life unfolding right before your eyes. You remember that girl, and remembered how you promised to stick for each other through anything; to be the kind of friends whose kids would also be friends; to just be with each other forever.

And then you remembered that little girl is not in your life anymore—has not been for years.

You remembered the accusations, the ugly words said. It didn’t matter whether it came from you, or from her—what only matters is that they’ve been said.

You don’t remember the exact time you wished you would not be around her anymore; how the thought of her coming over started to irritate you; how you stopped telling her everything; how the jokes became too much, too cruel; how you no longer got each other’s back; how you no longer fit in each others’ lives.

You’ve both lived different lives since then, and you can’t help but wonder: will these new versions of yourselves still like each other? Or is that all your friendship is going to be?

You wonder, and then you stop.

Because then, you realize that this life is what your life is supposed to be; that this life, without her, is better than with her in it.

And it’s okay.

Saturday, January 23, 2016

Counting On

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She looked around quickly, to see if anything had been taken. Dark clouds enveloped her; everything was hazy. She was confused.

She looked around and saw everything was being taken away–every part of herself, being shredded. She couldn’t help but wonder why. She couldn’t help but think about what she may have done wrong—or if that even matters at all.

Because the world takes, and takes, without fail. The world gets too much from you—all the way to your core. The world has broken her; stopped her from being here. The world has taken her innocence, replaced it with hurt. It took away her rose-colored lenses, and replaced it with bashed ones: that is what life has done.

She looked around again, and noticed that while life may be dark, the clouds have moved to make way for a blue sky. She ran towards the blue sky. She fell down, got scathed. She fell, but got up. She walked again.

She turned around. The dark clouds were getting farther and farther away. With a heavy heart, and bloodshot eyes, she smiled.

She knew that little by little, the world will be better again.

And though the black clouds may be looming, she knows that her hope and perseverance would pull her through.

That’s what she’s counting on.


A/N: Have been in such a novel-writing rut lately, so I decided to just put out some short writings from prompts. This will just be one of many.

Hello #ChewytheDog + Life, Lately (03)



Well, apart from the fact that I am still so exhausted, this week brought on a new surprise: Chewy the Dog!

We were actually supposed to adopt another dog the past week, but someone already adopted him, but I guess life really works in mysterious ways because I think Chewy’s a perfect fit for us. He’s just this little nutter (lol) but he’s really nice. I kind of think he’s adapting some of the kittens’ behavior, too, as he plays with them a lot.

Another interesting fact is that we found out he shares a birthday with my boyfriend. How many other times would you be able to get pets who share the same birthday with you, right?

So, yeah, having him around is really fun.


What I’ve been Reading

Let’s see…this week I finished reading:

  1. Tim Gunn’s Fashion Bible. I’m a sucker for fashion-related non-fiction books + can’t wrap my head around fiction right now, for some reason.
  2.  Don’t Forget the Parsley (Marie Claire Lim Moore). Read this for an upcoming blog tour, and I enjoyed it as much as I enjoyed Don’t Forget the Soap.
  3. 150 Movies You Should Die Before You See. Because crappy movies deserve a book, too.

Also been re-reading Fairy Tale Fail, my favorite Mina V. Esguerra book!

What I’ve been Listening To

  1. Seafret – Something in the Air
  2. Seafret – Atlantis
  3. James Young – I’ll be Good
  4. Amber Run – I Found
  5. Oh Wonder – Without You
  6. Oh Wonder – All We Do

Plus a lot of the #HSMPlaylist because #HSM10…but where are you, Troy?!


What I’ve Been Watching

Hell’s Kitchen, Masterchef Junior, Younger, Pretty Little Liars (YES I AM ALL ABOARD THE #SPALEB SHIP), Dark Net, KUWTK. Kocktails with Khloe, and for some reason, I’ve been watching a lot of Carpool Karaoke lol and as always, a lot of things I’m forgetting

Oh, also been playing a lot of Neko Atsume so if you wanna talk about that, I’m here

P.S. I’ve this Tumblr Quotes blog, if you want to follow, it’s at!


Saturday, January 16, 2016

Life Lately (02)


Well…this week has been quite something, huh?

Let’s see…it started out nice—with lots of TV (since I don’t often watch TV “on TV”), and then there were three new kittens (who actually turned out to be four!!!!) who were dropped off at our house, and of course, we took them in. I’ve actually forgotten how taxing and draining it is to take care of baby kittens since most cats here are 6 months and up already. I haven’t had much sleep in the past 2 days. I wish they were not taken away from their mama cat just like that :( Will post pics when they’re a bit bigger :)

And then…Alan Rickman left us all. It’s something that really shook me because I’ve been watching the Harry Potter movies all these years, as well as his other movies and appearances. But you know…growing up with Harry Potter, I kind of feel like a part of my life is really gone. It’s just…sad.

Anyway, aside from Harry Potter, my fave Rickman films include:

  1. Closet Land
  2. Perfume
  3. Alice in Wonderland

There are just so many awful things going on the world today that sometimes, you kind of want to question things. Plus I’m in this constant state of exhaustion and anxiety (January, I thought we were gonna be friends? What happened?) Sometimes I feel like I’m just floating through work and don’t really want to talk to people too much and I don’t know…

What I’ve been Reading

Half of January has gone and I’ve read just 4 books, which are:

  1. Columbine (4/5)
  2. Firsts (3/5)
  3. Me Before You (4/5)
  4. Oz The Great and the Powerful (2/5)

Columbine’s about the awful 1999 Columbine shootings, and I think it’s one of the most well-written true crime books I have read. Really gripping.

Firsts…well, I liked it at first and it had great premise but there were so many things that were off about it. Things about the gender spectrum, about “firsts”, and the main character’s just too much. But writing-wise, it was written well, I really just have a problem with the plot and the character.

Me Before You is heartbreaking in more ways than one.

And Oz the Great and the Powerful was just dreadful. Well, it was fine but…what was the point?

What I’ve been watching

I didn’t have proper internet connection for 4 days because of a nearby fire that destroyed the wires, but finally it was connected again yesterday, and I was able to catch up with my shows (yay).

Well, I’ve been watching the latest (and last) season of American Idol. Haven’t seen the show in years but I think it has its groove back this year. Great hopefuls + great chemistry from the judges, too.

I’ve also been catching up on:

  1. Younger Season 2
  2. New Girl Season 5 (is it 5 or 6? Lol but the latest season)
  3. The Shannara Chronicles

And of course, PLL, Supergirl, KUWTK…and I’m pretty sure I’m still forgetting something.

So yeah…that’s about it, I guess….


Monday, January 4, 2016

Every Beautiful Thing


Not everything is beautiful,

Not at first glance

But everything—even the littlest thing—has beauty

Beauty you’d choose to see

Beauty you can uphold

Beautiful is a smile that breaks through the tears;

Beautiful is hope that rises above the fears;

Beautiful is being glad for the simple things;

Beautiful is light that overshadows what the darkness brings;

Beauty is within you.

You just have to tap into it.

Sunday, January 3, 2016

Amazing is When…


Amazing is when the world is dull, but you still choose to see color

Amazing is when everything is wrong, but one right is enough to keep you going on

Amazing is when you

fall on the ground,

But you pick yourself up and move on

Amazing is when you feel like you can’t get up

But you manage to wake up, and stay strong