Raising Kittens

So, since our cat Clara gave birth a month and a few days back, we've had the pleasure of raising these three beautiful kittens. But well, when you're raising kids, even if they're just pets, you'd have to prepare yourself. Recently, they started eating solids and you know what happens when that goes on...

This week, for like, four consecutive days now, we've been  changing and washing our sheets and pillowcases because they've been soiled! It's such a grueling thing and though you want to get mad at those cats, well, they're just kids so you have to be really, really patient.

After all, those cats bring us joy. And, well, if you're asking me if I wanna have kids soon...hmm...I'd say maybe not yet. These cats are taking over our lives, for now. ;)

On finding the light at the end of the tunnel and what-nots

Sometimes, it's seems like all the hope in the world is lost. Sometimes, it's like you're no longer going to see the light. But then you hand on to whatever hope you have left. You hang on because it's the only thing you can do.

Quarterlife

You never grow up to be who you thought you'd be.

As time goes by, I just can't help but feel agitated. There are days when I ask myself about what I'd really want to do with my life and I just couldn't get an answer. I just don't know. I don't even write anymore. It's like...I just don't know. You ever get to that point?

And then, there are things that bother me. Things that just make me feel...afraid of my own skin. There are people I want to help, but couldn't. There are things I want to do but I can't.

And with friends...I've just lost so much of them. Some of those, I could care less because you know, I'd rather have few friends than a lot of fake ones but some, it's just...sad. Although, yeah, some i've left because I just don't feel comfortable anymore, but there are friends whom you think are worth keeping but are just...You just can't feel them anymore. I think state of mind and judgment and prejudice all amount to the loss of people in our lives. I think you have to have so much sensitivity for you to understand that not everyone thinks the same way you do; that you can't force your beliefs on people.

A few days back I was talking to one of my bestfriends and we've both admitted that so much has changed in a short span of time. We both are no longer the same people,and we barely even see each other. It's just...awkward.

I don't know. I've just had too much time to think lately. I wish my mind just gets back at peace. Please.

13

Flash forward and we're taking on the world togetherAnd there's a drawer of my things at your placeYou learn my secrets and you figure out why I'm guardedYou say we'll never make my parents' mistakes
But we got bills to payWe got nothing figured outWhen it was hard to takeYes, yes, this is what I thought about
Do you remember we were sitting there by the water?You put your arm around me for the first timeYou made a rebel of a careless man's careful daughterYou are the best thing that's ever been mine

          Babe,

So. When I opened Youtube this afternoon, this was the first thing that I saw. I've no idea why, I mean, this was taken a long tie ago, but it's funny coz I've  been singing this song a lot today  and you  were humming along to this this morning. I've been planning to write you a letter since our 13th monthsary's comin up  soon but you know how lazy I am these days when it comes to  using the pen and paper, but since I have this blog, I thought, "Why not write you something here?", so yeah, here it is.

 I know that  to say that our relationship  has been rocky lately is quite an understatement. I know we've been  arguing too much and yeah, well, we     like debating  on almost everything all the time that sometimes...our love is being overshadowed by all that shit. There are dyas though when I look at you and think, "It's so great to be loved." There are days when I think of us and I couldn't help but smile. 

         The past thirteen months have been quite a rollercoaster. And the past weeks, even more. But maybe, all relationships come to a test and just like rollercoasters, you just have to enjoy the ride. We may be two of the world's most imperfect individuals but I  guess that's why we connect. I don't  say this to you all the tie but I'm tankful that I have you. Thanks for being my boyfirend and bestfriend rolled into one. Thansk for cracking me up. For singing to me naks!. For..everything. Yeah, the arguments are craaaaazy but otherwise, we're good. I love you, and whenever you tell me that, especially when we're about to sleep at  night, it never fails to make me feel giddy inside. And i appreciate those love-filled hugs and kisses and you know what else..haha. And for loving our cats and fishes! You're  good daddy and lolo :P

So yes, there are more things to say  but I can't seem to find the words right now.   Yeah I'm still sad about you-know-what, but at least, it's not the end of the world. Here's another song that I know YOU love:

We could just go home right now
Or maybe we could stick around
For just one more drink, oh yeah
Get another bottle out
Lets shoot the shit
Sit back down
For just one more drink, oh yeah

Here's to us
Here's to love
All the times
That we fucked up
Here's to you
Fill the glass
Cause the last few days
Have kicked my ass
So lets give em hell
Wish everybody well
Here's to us
Here's to us

Stuck it out this far together
Put our dreams through the shredder
Let’s toast cause things got better
and everything could change like that
And all these years go by so fast
But nothing lasts forever

Here's to us
Here's to love
All the times
That we messed up
Here's to you
Fill the glass
Cause the last few nights
Have kicked my ass
If they give you hell
Tell em to go fuck themselves
Here's to us
Here's to us

Here's to all that we kissed
And to all that we missed
To the biggest mistakes
That we just wouldn’t trade
To us breaking up
Without us breaking down
To whatever's come our way

 And lastly, something that captures us right now:

Right from the startYou were a thiefYou stole my heartAnd I was your willing victimI let you see the parts of meThat weren't all that prettyAnd with every touch you fixed them
Now you've been talking in your sleep, oh, ohThings you never say to me, oh, ohTell me that you've had enoughOf our love, our love
Just give me a reasonJust a little bit's enoughJust a second we're not broken just bentAnd we can learn to love againIt's in the starsIt's been written in the scars on our heartsWe're not broken just bentAnd we can learn to love again
I'm sorry I don't understandWhere all of this is coming fromI thought that we were fine(Oh, we had everything)Your head is running wild againMy dear we still have everythin'And it's all in your mind(Yeah, but this is happenin')
You've been havin' real bad dreams, oh, ohYou used to lie so close to me, oh, ohThere's nothing more than empty sheetsBetween our love, our loveOh, our love, our love
Just give me a reason
Just a little bit's enoughJust a second we're not broken just bentAnd we can learn to love againI never stoppedYou're still written in the scars on my heartYou're not broken just bentAnd we can learn to love again
Oh, tear ducts and rustI'll fix it for usWe're collecting dustBut our love's enoughYou're holding it inYou're pouring a drinkNo nothing is as bad as it seemsWe'll come clean
Just give me a reasonJust a little bit's enoughJust a second we're not broken just bentAnd we can learn to love againIt's in the starsIt's been written in the scars on our heartsThat we're not broken just bentAnd we can learn to love again
Just give me a reasonJust a little bit's enoughJust a second we're not broken just bentAnd we can learn to love againIt's in the starsIt's been written in the scars on our heartsThat we're not broken just bentAnd we can learn to love again
Oh, we can learn to love againOh, we can learn to love againOh, oh, that we're not broken just bentAnd we can learn to love again

And promise me we'll sing that sometime! haha! Advanced Happy 13th Monthsary! I love you! :>

z

songs and questions

• Yay! So I was actually going to post about the songs that I'd really love to sing so WELL, I mean, I do covers once in a while, but you know...and then I found this list, so yeah, I decided to answer. Feel free to do so if you please. :)
• 1.  A song you like with a color in the title: Red (Taylor Swift) 
• 2: A song you like with a number in the title: One Day in your life (Jackson 5), Three (britney but i like the glee version better :)), Power of Two by the Indigo Girls
• 3: A song that reminds you of summertime: Soak up the sun (Sheryl Crow)--as in sobra
• 4: A song that needs to be played LOUD: hmmmmmm 2012? haha wala ko maisip
• 5: Song/s that you want to cover really well: Ellie Goulding's "Anything could happen" (I so wish I had her accent!), Demi Lovato's "Skyscraper", Marion aunor's "If you ever change your mind", Alicia Keys' "Girl on Fire", Halestorm's "Here's to Us" and Pink and Nate Ruess' "Just give me a reason", which I want to sing with my boyfriend hahaha :)
• 6: A song that makes you want to dance: Carly Rae Jepsen and Owl City's "Good Time" 
• 7: A song to drive to: Must Get Out by Maroon 5. I seriously could imagine so many things when that song's playing. Senti moments, yes :D
• 8: A song about drugs or alcohol: Blame it on the a-a-a-a-alcohol
• 9: A song that makes you happy: oh there are just too many. Whatever I like at the moment, and mainly demi lovato's songs, plus I have this weird obsession with Selena Gomez's "Dices". oh, and cheesy 90's music. Oh, and Glee. especially old school Glee.
• 10: A song that makes you sad: Michelle Featherstone's "Coffee and Cigarettes". *sob*
• 11: A song that you never get tired of: Billy Joel's "Vienna" and most of Taylor Swift's songs coz they're great to sing along to. 
• 12: A song from your preteen years: Pretty Boy! haha
• 13: One of your favorite 80’s songs: Video Killed the Radio Star
• 14: A song that you would love played at your wedding: Ah, Carlene and I were just talkin about this. Bless the broken Road by Rascal Flatts :) And, Bob Carlisle's "Butterfly Kisses." 
• 15: A song that is a cover by another artist: I super like Taylor Swift's cover of Viva La Vida, and Owl City's cover of Enchanted. Sweet. 
• 16: One of your favorite classical songs: Claire de Lune. And Henry Mancini's "Love Story", the one that says "Where do I begin to tell the story lalalalala..." :D 
• 17: A song that would sing a duet with on karaoke: Just give me a reason! Someday We'll know!
• 18: A song from the year that you were born: Elton John - Candle in the wind, Tiffany- Could've been
• 19: A song that makes you think about life: Billy Joel's "Vienna", and The Band Perry's "If I die young"
• 20: A song that has many meanings to you: Vienna. Someone's Waiting for you. Hush Hush. haha :)
• 21: A favorite song with a person’s name in the title: Ronan. 
• 22: A song that moves you forward: No Boundaries. 
• 23: A song that you think everybody should listen to: Everybody should listen to Vienna. 
• 24: A song by a band you wish were still together: World Of Our Own. yeah, Westlife :D
• 25: A song by an artist no longer living: I miss you - Aaliyah
• 26: A song that makes you want to fall in love: (Well, I am in love haha) Bless the broken road, Today is a fairytale, Lucky, there are too many.
• 27: A song that breaks your heart: Taylor Swift's piano version of "Forever and Always", Ronan, Coffe and Cigarettes by Michelle Featherstone, Rachael Yamagata's "Reason Why" and "Worn me Down"
• 28: A song by an artist with a voice that you love: Anything could happen- Ellie Goulding, and anything by Adele.
• 29: A song that you remember from your childhood: mmmbop :D 
• 30: A song that reminds you of yourself: Vienna. :) and Meredith Brooks' "Bitch!" 
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Blessed be thy art

I've always, always loved art.I think than when things go out of hand, I always turn to art to make me feel better. Just this year, I've started making collages again--of anything and everything I could put together. It may be a pretty trivial thing to you, but for me...It's always good to see what I've put together come to life--or something like it. It's fun to put scraps of stuff together and have it come out into something beautiful.

I don't know. Confusion still rains on me these days. I still don't know what I have to do in the next few weeks, months. Crazy, I know. Sometimes I feel like I wanna make a living out of art, I just don't know how to. Plus, I'm having major blocks with my writing these days.Anyway, here are some of the stuff I've done.

"The more lost you are, the more you have to look forward to." --Ally McBeal